( 14 / 11 / 2009 )

Now, this is the part where I was reminded of the occasion. Sheesh.
Going back to where ♥ and I started surely reminded me of two sad things;

that number one, it’s My valentine’s day…
and number two, ♥ not here.

Well .. Let me tell you what I will do 😉

Do not look at this view .. Yes, I smiled 😉

Well ..

I went and I bought :

1- Trident watermelon .
2- Kit Kat.
3- soda cream.
4- ice cream ( mega ).
5- potato chips the new ( shrimp ).

Sitting in the Balcony ..
Engine fan ..
Sitting on my chair ..
hearing Mohamed Fouad ( New Album ).

What do you think? 😉

It is my right to smile .. right?

Now .. I am standing here ,,
and Look To myself saying .. happy valentine day 😉

Fuck .. don’t look me with this view again ok !!

yes i saying it to my self ..

smiley face 🙂

ok .. so say happy valentine day to me .. and wish me luck in my day.

‘ Happy Monthly love day my sweet lover ‘


It hurts. Yes, it still does.

Standing in front of my mirror.

Saying :  Smile ..
Reaction : I’m smile.

Saying : Smile ,, Be Happy ..
Reaction : ……

Wait .. i’m looking to my self saying smile and i’m  actually crying.

You don’t know how much painful ..
how much too pain ful to write about.

How painful to looking to your self when you trying to be smiling and you can’t.

How painful to look at yourself and you underestimate yourself.

Wondering …

Do I deserve it .. Do I deserve what is happening ..

Believe me, I tried ..

I tried to forget ..
I tried to busy ..
I tried to get out of it ..

But I can’t.

There is no Words ..
Just a feeling.

I want him to continue to exist .. And

At the same time

I want him to disappear ..

I want to be Fine .. really i want.

P.S [ I miss You .. i’m happy To hear Your Voice ].